TWO lyrics

This City

2010-06-12T00:07:00.000-07:00

Oh this city
Hearts and minds and stones
Crosses, crescents, stars, apart.

Oh this city
Arches cocoon bazaars,
Gates of victory triumph march.

Born of a deep belief,
History steeped without relief,
You have put all faith to shame.
Dwellings crushed and houses built,
Questions over blood that’s spilt,
Heavy burden deeply felt.

Oh this city
Sunsets over deserts arch,
Barriers more stop than start.

Oh this city
Crumbled dreams and visions new,
Compromise to please the few.

What a place to call a home,
Nothing’s sacred ‘til it’s gone,
Live in fear this may be blown apart.

I think on these things…

Words and music (c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Summer

2010-06-12T00:06:00.000-07:00

I'm holding on to Summer
Like I'm holding on to us
I sense it disappearing
Like all the seasons must

Only when the sun goes down
Will I see what’s lost and found.

I’ve been a long time wondering
Is it passion? is it love?

I'm hunting the horizon
Like I'm hunting memory
I sense a new revealing
Of impossibility.

Only as the globe spins round
Will I feel this shifting ground

Move on summer breeze
Clear the air for me
I'm asking you please
For clarity.

Words and music (c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Hold on to

2010-06-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

Run me over, sometimes I am not here
Sleep sober, chasing shadows in my fears

Gifted. Maybe. Throw it back into your face
Car crash baby – I have fallen form your grace

You are living, I am dying
Give me something I can hold on to
Over rated, understated
Give me something I can hold on to

Future’s certain. Comic timing holds it all
In the balance careful I would like to fall

Could love you if I tried. I could love you if I tried
I could love you if I tried to love you

God give me patience, Don’t let us come to harm

Words and music (c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

All Night

2010-06-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

Oh it started like cracks on my bedroom wall
When it stared it was hardly heard at all
Won’t forget what you said - These indelible word are all in my head

I could listen to you all night
I could listen to you all night

You have got me trying to catch ever word
Yeah you got me hanging on all I heard
But I can’t pin this down - Cos you layering the meaning not giving it out

I could listen to you all night (Depth of sky and drop of ocean)
I could listen to you all night (Speed of silcence still in motion)

I wan to be set apart, Fallen down and then picked right up
But the way you hold my gaze make me question all of my ways
Don’t want to be trapped in the tune with nothing to say

Words and music (c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Raynbird Street

2010-06-11T23:59:00.000-07:00

Stolen thoughts insignificant rest inside me
You and me and the healing sea
Is my behaviour forgiven deceit?
I forgot who I was on Raynbird Street

Ooh, will I open my eyes to this?
Me and you , just a fantasy playfully missed
It so true – we are nothing but a tiny kiss of time,
Nothing but a tiny kiss of time

Borrowed for generations – the way it will be,
You and me shade beneath this tree
Is all my wonder stagnant belief?
Emerging to life – on Raynbird Street

And the place you exist is still strange to me
In the crossing of paths is out mystery
And I challenge the view to out-staring defeat
I opened my eyes on Raynbird Street

Words and music (c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Sisterhood

2010-06-05T12:28:00.000-07:00

Keep the lights down low, make the fire glow when darkness comes around
Keep madmen at bay, keep the Terror away in this revolution town
We came to live our freedoms out, from England's wretched law
To the land where all men are equal and all women can stand tall

In a circle tight I found the fight and I wrote for all
To all womankind leaving weakness behind and to daughters yet unborn
I wrote from rage and certainty, on the pages I was free
Don't you read the scars on my heart or my own life's tragedy

And loneliness in a foreign place and fear of the guillotine
Made me lean too hard on a man's cold heart, I thought he would rescue me
I found myself betrayed and spent, a woman cast aside
I let the river take me down to the depths where I could forever hide

My life was spared I learned to care, I learned to carry on
My heart was healed by the goodness of time and I loved another man
We allowed our love to bring us peace, but the comfort it was brief
Though I bore him another life, in the end I brought him grief.

Though I have long been dead and gone my hope will never end
That you'll find the strength to rise again, my sisters and my friends
A woman's life is all her own, no man shall be her head
We will drink to our sisterhood, the living and the dead.

Words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Certainty

2010-06-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

I must have seen your face a million times
In everyone who passed me by
Wonder how it feels to have such certainty

You tried so hard, you couldn't heal the world
But you knew your saints by name
There's nothing left now for you to give

It's never a waste when you live as only you can live
It's never a waste when you give the things that only you can give
And the years will prove it so
When you're going with the flow

If lives are doorways yours was open wide
You showed us body, mind and soul
In the blink of an eye you're at the end of life

It's never a waste....

I'll see you on the other side,
Though I'll row the boat upon a different tide
There's something of you in me I'm sure deep inside
But I'm too young to swap the gold for time

It's never a waste....

Words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

If Only

2010-06-05T09:21:00.001-07:00

I see your ghost window shopping
It takes time for my smile to fade
There's a man over there could be your brother
With hair the exact same shade
And I recognise you in the faces of your children
Though they don't know that I'm still afraid
If only, if only, if only we could change our yesterday

Ten years have been such a burden
And every year it feels just the same
There's gap where you should be living
And I find I still call your name
And when I laugh out loud I turn to tell you
And then I seem to need someone to blame
Well if only, if only, if only, we could change our yesterday

And the light it flickers on bravely
And it gives me a shiver of hope
And I hope wherever your soul is
It will go where all love goes

I wish I could remember in detail
All the sweet things that you said to me
I sometimes forget the colour of your eyes
Though I picture you constantly
And the only things left now are the memories
They're like flowers on the open sea
If only, if only, if only there was another way it could be

And the light....

Words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Tired of Loving You

2010-06-04T23:57:00.000-07:00

Never thought that I would be
Empty in your company
Never thought that you would
Leave me cold

Never thought that love could be
Tangled up in agony
Though you say your hands are safe
I'm falling through

Now I am tired of loving you....

Faded kisses and the scent of you
Is that that's left when the day turns cruel
It's a casual easy thing
That's your favourite line

Now I am tired of loving you...

And it seemed the perfect place
Your sense of fun and my tenderness
Now it seems that we are bound
To wander this painful circle round
This is endless.....

Never thought that I would be
Fighting you and hating me
Never thought that you would stay
But not be there

Never thought I'd tell you lies
Trying not to fan the fires
Though you say your love runs deep
You're terrified

Now I am tired of loving you....

Words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Gallows

2010-06-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

With what little time I had
I became the gallows man
I understood it was the final way to fail
So this rope is not for sale

I am a good and honest man
I made it quick and clean with a steady hand
But duty killed me in the end
When I measured up a friend

I know I'm in the shadows
I've fallen for the gallows
Be glad that you don't have those
Visions of bodies swinging

There's no panic before the hood
Breaking necks for the common good
A shorter way to sleep in Pierrepoint's hands
Though soft and gentle his commands

He was a good and honest man
He made it quick and clean with a steady hand
He treated death so decently
He could hang me

words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Spontaneous

2008-12-03T06:04:00.000-08:00

You didn't ask for nothing though you were holding back inside,
Didn't ask for everything though I wish you had this time.
Must have noticed something to have caused you to decide,
To hide from this belonging that could make us so defined.
You shouldn't look at me if I'm never to be seen in this light.
You won't realise yourself if you're keeping me out of sight.

I could be everything,
Someone so spontaneous is always changing,
Could different be the same for us? (well)
I could be everything,
I'm cultivating evidence of circumstances,
Almost reinventing us.

You didn't give me anything and maybe this is kind.
Showed me all of nothing that we had left behind.
But now I'm seeing you in your temporary guise,
You won't understand yourself, maybe I have to try.

I could be everything to you... more than you'll ever know...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Coming Home

2008-10-14T08:39:00.001-07:00

Never said I'd be an easy task
I never give up if I think I'm right
I've tried turning around to see it from the other side
Then standing my ground clinging to my hopeless pride

I've worked it out I'm coming home to you
I've worked it out I'm coming home
Worked it out - I'm coming home to you

Feeling weaker I've had some time to pass
Re-live everything it was our ego clash
Now I'm turning around - thought I'd be the one to rescue us
I'm hoping the ground is going to come and swallow me up

Worked it out...

Most times your heart is bigger than mine
And I think you will find that...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Shoulder

2008-10-14T08:33:00.000-07:00

What if this is right?
What if we are wrong?
I always pick the fight
You always pick the song.

Trying not to hate you,
You have pushed all the wrong buttons,
Starting my ignition made me come undone.
What I see before me is the mess of our solution
The final destination and you'll find me gone

This is my last chance today
My last stance over you
This is my last chance to stay
And my last glance over my shoulder

Trying not to love you
I have backed you in a corner
To look for my indifference - you will find there's none
What I've never told you is that I am in denial
Consistent resolution can't be counted on.

This is my last chance...

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Bruise

2008-10-14T08:24:00.000-07:00

Come on Sister, let's break it all down
While we ease in the morning, dew's fresh on the ground
Come on Sister, this life is yours
You got to have some acceptance, I'm giving it all

You've been working so hard on yourself
Improving what cannot be felt

You don't bruise easy (I wish I could say that)
You've been watching and waiting
Waiting here for love

Come on Sister, let's look at inside
Take out the feelings, and make them alright
Come on Sister, I know who you are
No need to travel the world here, you've already come far

I know you are trying to find
A heart that is one of a kind
Don't give up you'll find one sooner
Don't give up maybe find one later
Don't give up it'll find you in the end

You don't bruise easy....

You're hidden in the shadows
You want to be more fully known
You tell yourself you're hollow
I know what it's like to be alone.

(c) Helen Turner
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Guns

2008-10-14T03:52:00.000-07:00

All those years ahead of you and you threw it all away
And the dreams of all that you could do blown to pieces in just one day
And never again will the innocent child laugh out loud
For years to come anonymity's gone - you're the monster in the crowd

What trick of mind what clumsy heart ruled your hands and feet
What kind of anger or senseless daze made you forget the pain you'd wreak
And now the world will never let you forget this day
With guns in your pocket and a plan in your head you blew it all away

Death's no game, shame you knew where the bullets go

And hearts bleed like mourners' do
And hearts grieve but not for you
Only your mother will cry for you

Where lies the fault? Who can we blame? Guess you're too young to know
Did your friends talk big? Did you stay up late, being the grown up with the TV on?
What fun was it to be outside when you should have been in school?
What thrill was it with the weapon by your side, doing what you knew?

Now you cry, why can't time run backwards?

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Running Slow

It's never easy and I try not to
Follow my heart these days
I've got a softly whispering voice inside me
Says 'dream your days away'

I'm craving action I run like crazy
There's nothing left to stop me now
I've got a sense of panic and I can't help it
It leaves me out and down

So catch me, I am running slow
And chase me, it keeps me high you know
And watch me
Every waking moment's glad

I keep my distance I keep my own ways
But you can see my smile draw near
I've got a tentatively troubling distraction
And it makes me disappear

So catch me I am running slow
Chase me it keeps me high you know
and watch me
I will make my every waking moment glad

And days they take
My highs and lows away
So watch me
I will make my every waking moment glad

It's never easy and I try not to
Follow my heart these days
I've got a softly whispering voice inside me
Says 'dream your days away'

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Sublime

2008-10-14T03:45:00.001-07:00

How many Valentines have passed without kisses?
How many conversations end as near misses?
How many things are learnt that leave us understanding less?
And how many start today with yesterday's mess?

How many afternoons have I wasted on my worries?
How many rainy days have dampened down my courage?
I count the times I've laughed as part of my intention
I count the days I cannot smile as my spiritual redemption

Now it's time I hold my breath and my strength until
The days will be sublime and still
And I hope they will

If thoughts were measured by the mile then I have run a million
And I'm bold enough to smile, it's something I've been given
I hold on to the day my feet will stop their running
And I'll count the hours before the dawn and celebrate its coming
Yes I'll count the hours before the dawn and celebrate its coming

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Build Me a Home

Build me a home where the land is green
Give me windows to show me what I long to see
Build me foundations so the roof doesn't fall
I will call it home

Give me a field of fertile ground
Give me a fearless arm strong enough to plough
If I am willing to work these fields
I will call it home

Wind may blow hard to knock my house down
Waters may rise
Elements may conspire to bring my walls down
And the wind she cries

I know the river runs too deep
A soldier too long now I find it hard to weep
What I wouldn't give for a real homeland
To call my own

I am a temple in a wartorn zone
Other worldly heart beat is my Rosetta Stone
No gothic windows just an easy chair
This is my home

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd

Silver

2008-10-14T03:41:00.000-07:00

See them walking side by side
Holding hands like young lovers
Fifty years they've had of learning how to love
Half a century of giving it all

And if I could share my years and future
Would it be with someone else?
And if I could let my hair turn silver
Would it be with someone else?
And as the years go by I know
I could love you for a hundred years

Well, that's what I would like when I'm older
To take a photograph of us still smiling
And look at life's challenges and the battles we have won
We'll never get weary of giving it all

(c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd