If Only

I see your ghost window shopping
It takes time for my smile to fade
There's a man over there could be your brother
With hair the exact same shade
And I recognise you in the faces of your children
Though they don't know that I'm still afraid
If only, if only, if only we could change our yesterday

Ten years have been such a burden
And every year it feels just the same
There's gap where you should be living
And I find I still call your name
And when I laugh out loud I turn to tell you
And then I seem to need someone to blame
Well if only, if only, if only, we could change our yesterday

And the light it flickers on bravely
And it gives me a shiver of hope
And I hope wherever your soul is
It will go where all love goes

I wish I could remember in detail
All the sweet things that you said to me
I sometimes forget the colour of your eyes
Though I picture you constantly
And the only things left now are the memories
They're like flowers on the open sea
If only, if only, if only there was another way it could be

And the light....

Words and music (c) Sharon Winfield
Published by Bad Bear ltd